A fresh perspective on my back.

So, my back has been acting up recently. I've taken on some physical challenges and I had back surgery only a couple of months ago, yet I felt it was time. At the same time, it's late in the year, and my spiritual tone is getting harder and harder to maintain.

A while back, a teacher told me that healing after surgery is like mending a broken relationship. I thought I'd smoothed things over pretty well, but I was about to find out I'd gotten the flowers but still wasn't listening :-D

I've recently been teaching a loved one the value of surrender; releasing emotional hang-ups to better stay in the present. With that I'd like to share the following quote:

"Think you the relationship between Master and Padawan is only to help them? Oh, this is what we let them believe, yes! But when the day comes that even old Yoda does not learn something from his students-then truly, he shall be a teacher no more." ―Yoda

I was meditating tonight, noticing the sensations produced by my unhappy back when it hit me. I still have emotional mending to do. I thought I'd just picked up and moved on, but instead I realized that I had basically pretended that (for the most part) it never happened. The other half was that even with that attitude, I was treating my back like it was permanently less than what it was. Putting all of this together, I gave my love to my innerverse, especially my poor back. For so long, it had toiled on, without the love and support of the guiding intelligence (me), yet it continued on and was only now crying for help and attention.

Having come to this realization, I was shocked to realize just how cruel one can be. Here I am trying to refine myself into a light upon the world, and I blithely ignore an entire universe entrusted to me and reliant upon my direction? No more.

I finished my meditation, and also realized that along with the ghost hunting that comes with this time of year, also comes the need to really focus on maintaining my spiritual tone. I spent a while collecting more energy and working on my tone (Water of Life, for those of you in-the-know). After that, and equipped with fresh perspective, I am once again back in the captain's chair.